A Beautiful Surprise

I have no idea how this is happening or why, but Internet Boyfriend is amazing. He appears to be Emotionally Available. Clearly, I have no clue how to process this. He is attentive (via text, LOL) and considerate. He is challenging me to communicate and show up and to speak my truth. Our history is full of attraction and what I can now only explain now as a desire to be together yet neither one of us had the balls back then to just say so. Maybe this is ridiculous. Or perhaps it’s one of those amazing love stories all women dream of. I don’t know.

All I know is right now he sure feels like Prince Charming. I was a mess, and he rescued me. The Boss really did a number on me, but if that had not happened, I would not be here with Internet Boyfriend.

He is a spectacular artist. Always was. That’s how I remember him in both high school and college. The night I busted The Boss, Internet Boyfriend was there for me. We IM’d for 3 hours, and 3 hours again the next night. We talked about everything. He’s deep, but funny, honest but not needy.

During our conversations, he was actually interested in some of my psycho-spiritual babble. Ultimately this type of awareness defines who I am. Anyone really close to me knows this and embraces this, but not the men that I date. I know that that right there shows my own emotional deficiency… but perhaps I’m transforming that.

After our 3 hour conversations, a few nights in a row he drew me a picture, based on one of the sacred teachings I shared with him. He called it Divine Timing. Whoa!
It is an amazing pencil drawing that must have taken him hours upon hours.
He sent it to me, and I was blown away.

It is of a Divine Eye, inside a heart and the heart is inside two circles that are connecting. He said it represents us, and what has happened between us over the past few days. Hello! I love symbolism. I live, thrive and feel the world based on symbolic sight. Does he also see the world this way?

So I wrote him this:

Divine Timing is the reality that everything happens exactly as it should for our souls evolution. It allows us to recognize all of the many blessings that have helped us to find our way here. It also acknowledges our struggles as gifts and challengers as angels, all here to shape us. That every single experience has carried a necessary and sacred lesson so that we can be right here, right now.

In Divine Timing, we can truly open up, because there are no expectations. No agendas. It is simply two friends, two souls, two hearts who have stumbled upon a rare moment where it is possible for you to be you and me to be me.